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amnesia

// February 23rd, 2008 // personal

Have you ever woke up one day and didn’t know who you are or where you are?

Well, I always know who I am (Thank god!), but yes I did sometimes can’t figure it out where am I. This happen quite a lot sometimes but only when I am living in the United States.

I’ve been having sleeping problems quite often and since you couldn’t sleep, then of course you don’t dream. But sometimes when I do finally have asleep, I dream. Sometimes I dream about some random stuff which pretty normal in dreaming world I suppose. But there are times when my dream really change the way I am, especially the way I think.

I suppose everyone sometimes dream about their childhood or what happened in the past and then you wake up the next morning and becoming who you are right now. Well, at least that’s my assumption since I don’t really talk about this topic with anyone.

Well, what happened to me is I dreamed that I was still in High School, it’s about 13 years ago. In my dream, I really came back as the person I was during that time. I didn’t think about anyone that I know or what I do after that period of time. I could remember things that happen in the past but not what happen in the future, including what happen present time. So, in my dream, I didn’t know who’s my husband is, my co workers name because it hasn’t happened yet. I still assumed that was normal.

The weird thing is when I wake up, my mind still living in the past. I often wondering where am I. Am I at my Mom’s house? No, because the wall looked different. Probably I am at one of my relative house? Usually it only take less than a minute before I finally figure it out that I’m 28 years old now and no longer living in Indonesia.

Is that Amnesia? Even though it’s only last for few seconds? I don’t know. But the thing is I KNOW WHO I AM. I just don’t know WHERE I am. Should I be worried? I don’t know. Part of it feels a little fun. It’s like having adventure and probably it sounds cool to tell everyone about it.

Long time ago, I wrote that I probably have a condition called Sleep Paralysis . It’s where I could feel a present of someone while I am half asleep half awake. It doesn’t happen anymore because I never sleep in my back anymore. Once of the tips to avoid those is not to sleep on your back and it worked! Now, I have this ‘new’ thing going on. I am thinking of searching the answer by the help of who else than Almighty Google .

The negative side of me said that it’s the sign that I’m gonna have Alzheimer soon. But I remember reading or hearing somewhere that it’s not a sign of Alzheimer if you just forget where you put your pen is, but it is a sign if you see a pen and forget what it is. Right now I only forget where I am. Damn, it still sound “serious”, isn’t it. I think it’s better to forget where you are when you were in Jack In The Box and you think it’s MacDonald instead of forgetting where you are while at your own bedroom!

Well, it seemed it’s gonna be a fun research. I shall post later what I found.

For now I assumed that’s must be a form of stress that I’ve been having, or just like one of my friend said the crisis of being “a new” adult. I still feel new in adult world even though I am 28 and soon gonna be 29. Maybe all this craziness will be over when I reach 30? I don’t know. (*)