Roxette and me.

I haven’t updated my site in a long time and also haven’t visited anyone’s blog/sites in a long time. This last few months has been very busy for me. It was also a very stressful time with me, although it ended VERY great.

It started with the most terrible times in my whole life but ended in most fantastic times that I myself has never dare to imagine. Now I am confident to say that 2009 maybe the best year of my life.

The are so many reason why it’s the best. This year, I finally achieve not ONLY one but MANY things that I’ve always dreamed or thought before, the dream that seemed impossible and still to this day, I can’t believe that it’s actually happen. The dream is ‘Meeting Roxette’.

I didn’t realize how much this event meant to me, because I thought I’m no longer a a “Roxette fanatic”, I STILL like them but I thought the effects like I used to feel when I was teenager probably has faded away with time. I was like a newborn Roxette fan again. Then I realize that I am actually still a Roxette fanatic, but past event (like terrible thing that happen to Marie) made me want to focus on something else, thing that ‘less selfish’ than to see them on a stage.

If you curious, I am gonna share my story which I actually wrote and got published at RoxetteBlog.Com

WARNING: It’s quite long

BEING a Roxette fan was always a challenge for me. Everytime I always wanted to get something Roxette-related, I had to try extra harder (maybe harder than anyone else) to get what I wanted. Most of the time it would be so stressful, but for some reason it was always ended great and by the end of the day it became a good story to tell.

I remember on 1993, I was only 14 years old and still living in a very small town of Indonesia (now I’m living in US). At that time, my TV only had one channel, no cable at all.

I have a cousin who liked to buy a tabloid which included a TV guide/schedules for the whole week. I remember it was Tuesday night, and for fun I would pretend that my TV had all the chanells like in that TV guide, and I’d marked the shows that I pretend I was going to watch the next day.

Then I read about the show called “About Roxette”. I panicked and shocked because ever since I become a huge fan, never in my life I watched a whole hour show about them. Now some channel is gonna broadcast them but my TV didn’t even get that? What am I gonna do?
No one I knew had cable.

So, all night I prayed (I really did), that if I couldn’t watch the show, I hope that when I woke up tomorrow that the show will disappear magically from that tabloid (I know it sounded selfish).

I couldn’t really sleep of course, and around 5 am I woke up and checked the listing. It was still there, and now it was only few hours away.

To my surprise, I heard someone knocked on our door and my mom went to open it. I stayed in my room, but I could hear that it was my aunt. It was strange for her to visit my mom in that hour.

Then I overheard her saying the most magical word ever. She said: ”We just installed cable yesterday.”

I jumped off bed instantly and went outside to make sure I didn’t misheard. She was telling the truth, she had cable now and meaning I COULD see Roxette!

So, even though the show wouldn’t be on until 3 pm, I already sat in front of the TV at her house since 8 am. Hours later, I finally was able to see Marie and Per for the whole hour (well, 30 minutes actually, because there were commercial breaks) for the first time in my life.

No Indonesian subtitles, just English and at that time I only understood maybe 5 percent of what they were talking about, but I didn’t care. I just want to see them. Ah, those were the days…

That’s just the beginning…

Years later, I was still a Roxette fan and my dream was to see them live on stage. However, things changed when Marie got ill. All of a sudden, I put aside that dream and all I want was to see her healthy and happy agaon, even if it meant that I’d never see Roxette live ever again.

I actually manage to make myself not really thinking about them anymore. Thank god for my very busy job and school. For the first time in my life, I felt like I wasn’t Roxette number one fan anymore, I like to think that maybe now I was only Roxette number 37 or 38 fan.

Years ago, I wanted to be the first person who owned their latest album, but this time I even waited 3 years before I got Rox Box.

But then there she was ON STAGE again with Per in Amsterdam. Suddenly things changed again. Now I was probably Roxette number 10 fan. I felt like 15 again. I admit I cried when I saw them (through YouTube) on stage again and I remembered the dream I used to have of seeing them live again.

I realized that it never goes away, at that time I just wanted to be a good fan, especially for Marie. I stay away because I want the best for her, but now I think it’s no longer selfish to have a Roxette dream again.

Then I heard the news that they would be performing on Night of the Proms. I was trembling and feeling so nervous when I realized that I might be able to see them. I actually had enough money on my bank to see them.

I had been saving money for travelling to a place that I hadn’t decided and now I COULD use that money.

I decided to go to see them in the Netherlands. And since this was my first time travelling outside the US, and even though I am US permanent resident but still am an Indonesian citizen, I decided to call the Indonesian consulate and addressed my question to them.

I asked them if I needed a visa to go to Netherland, and they said no. That’s how I made my first mistake ever. I didn’t double check with the Dutch Consulate. I BELIEVED them right away. So, then I bought the round trip ticket to Amsterdam, bought one NOTP ticket for Rotterdam show, booked 4 nights room for a hostel, learnt how the train system works (printing the schedules, etc), even made a trip plan to see Roxette’s foot prints in Rotterdam.

I also bought a new suitcase, camera, winter clothes, some travelling kits and books to read at the airplane. I even announced that to everyone I knew in Facebook, Twitter, and whatever/whenever I could about this most exiting moment I am about to experience. I also took almost a week off work.

Then a week before my trip, I bought another NOTP ticket. I was so happy to know that I was going to be in TWO concerts. Life seemed GREAT.

Then on the 16th, I said goodbye to all my Facebook friends, hopefully to meet some of them at the concert. I went to the airport with happiness and joy. The only thing that worried me if I could straight my legs on the airplane.

However the day I arrived at the airport made turns me from the happiest gal at to the saddest and the most tragic person at San Diego Lindberg Airport.

They said I couldn’t go because I didn’t have the visa. I was so shocked. I thought everything was perfect, I thought in few days I’d finally be able to see Marie and Per. Never in my life I’d changed from the happiest person to the saddest THIS fast.

I felt sad before for not being able to see Roxette when they toured Indonesia (1995), but at that time I knew from the very beginning I wouldn’t be able to see them, so I was sad, but was more prepared. This was different, I was SO fuckin’ sure I was gonna see them.

I learned that to get the visa I’d need at least three weeks, meaning even when I get it, it was already too late. My dream was crashed.

I went home crying. I decided I wanted to take a break from anything, especially from Roxette. It was too painful. I took off the calendar because I didn’t want to see the dates to remind me that I was supposed to be in Rotterdam.

I asked my husband to message my Rox friends about what happened, because I thought it would be strange to just disappear like that.
He also contacted the airplane ticket and they said the ticket wasn’t refundable, but I could still use the credit for my next flight. However, they would still take $ 300 as penalty.

The hostel charge me one night out of four (that was fair). The NOTP ticket wasn’t refundable unfortunately. I wanted to give it away to other fans, but too little time.

However, it turns out I couldn’t really take a break. I kept wondering if I could make it to Germany instead? Should I try by using the credit of my airplane ticket? I was too scared to fail and even losing more money.

Then, with the last energy I had, I decided to try to get a visa to Germany. There were lots of requirements, and again almost made me give up, but some part of me kept me wondering how if I’d succeed. I was worried that in the future I’d always be wondering what would happen if I had never even tried.

So, yes, I decided to give it another try. Again, I bought (using the credit and paid even more money) another roundtrip airplane ticket from USA to Germany.

Just in case, I bought a ticket for the last show in Dortmund. The ticket was more expensive than the one I had before and it wasn’t in front of the stage, like my seat in Rotterdam, but I didn’t care. This time I planned everything quietly. Maybe because I was just too afraid that it might fail again.

Then, we went to the German Consulate in Los Angeles. At that time it was only two weeks before the concert, and the woman at the consulate reminded me that it might took three weeks for me to get the visa. At that time, I just didn’t care. “Whatever,” I thought.

Later, they still said that my letter of reference from work didn’t look legitimate enough and I needed a new one. My itinerary wasn’t what they wanted either.

Usually, they want people to bring those documents in person, but this time they said I could just mail them in. Thank goodness. We already spent lots of money for gas from San Diego to LA back and forward.

… And the waiting game began. Couldn’t really sleep and eat. Gosh, waiting was REALLY a very hard thing to do!

Then three days before the 16th, I got a call from the consulate and they said that my visa was ready! I WAS so relieved and happy! We drove to Los Angeles again to get it. I still decided not to let anyone know about it at least until the concert was over.

Just to be sure, a day before my trip, we went to the airport and showed the document I had, and they said that was all I needed. “Just don’t be late,” the Airport people told me.

The 16th arrived and finally I was on a plane to Dusseldorf, Germany. I just couldn’t believe that my dream was about to become true! I arrived on the 17th and went to my hotel right away.

The next day, the 18th, I woke up and I realized that in a few hours Roxette was going to sing in Cologne but I only had one ticket to Dortmund. I knew that the show for that day probably was sold out, but what about the one for tomorrow? Should I go? Then I talked with my husband on the phone, I asked him to check my account and he said that I still had a little money.

So, I decided to take a train to Cologne right away and arrived around 1 pm. I asked if they still had a ticket for tomorrow’s show, then they checked their computer and told me that they did! I was so happy, but then I decided to ask IF they still had ticket for TONIGHT show, and they said yes.

I bought the ticket right away. They asked me if I wanted to buy another one for the next day, but I said I’ll think about it.

The problem now, that the show wouldn’t start until 8 pm, and here I was already at the location seven hours earlier. I didn’t have any friends in Cologne so I didn’t know where to go.

First I went to Greek restaurant and ate, I even talked with a waiter who was shocked when he learned the reason why I was there. However, I felt uncomfortable to sit down there hours and hours, so I decided to leave and wandered in a cold weather until the show started.

It was pretty hard, especially for someone who came from Indonesia (tropical country), then living in southern California to suddenly walking around during freezing winter time in Germany.

Finally it was almost the show time. I was so excited and touched at the same time. I couldn’t believe I’d see Roxette for the first time in my life.

Then I heard the most familiar familiar music followed by the familiar faces. I felt so amazed, I decided to stop taking pictures, I just wanted to pay attention to Marie and Per while they performed “Wish I Could Fly”. I felt like I was dreaming, like it didn’t actually happen.

When the song was over, and they both disappeared, that was when I actually realized that I JUST saw Roxette. I felt like I was about to cry, but then I thought if I cried right now, people would think that I was a fan of whomever in the stage right now. So, I forced myself not to.

Then, of course later, I was amazed again by how great Marie’s performance was, especially during “Listen To Your Heart”. Honestly, when I went to see them, I didn’t have any expectation at all. I felt like my job was to support them no matter what. They have blessed me with great music all these years, it was my turn to thank them by just showing up. So, I was totally blown away when Marie proved that she still had one of the most beautiful voices I’ve heard in my life. That woman was just so amazing and powerful. That was probably my absolute favorite performance of hers.

When I went back to my hotel that night, I kept thinking on how great the show was. So, I decided to try to get another ticket for tomorrow’s show. I went there again very early so I could still get the ticket, which I did. Once again, I had to walk around for hours waiting for the show to begin.

This time was even harder because there was heavy snow all over the place. I kept thinking how on earth I was gonna survive on this weather, I felt numb all over, my hands and face were frozen, but then it help me to not feeling as cold.

Maybe two hours before the show, I cought some familiar faces in the crowd waiting for the door to be opened. However, I was still not sure. So, I just followed them and waited until someone mentioned “Roxette”, then maybe I’d say hi. Then I saw Kirsten (A Roxette friend that I only know from internet), but again I was still not sure and I kept standing near them. No one said Roxette or Kirsten, so then I decided to say hi anyway. I mean, what worst thing could happen?

It turned out it was really her, and she was quite surprised that I actually MADE it to the concert. Then, something more amazing than I could imagine actually happened. She asked me if I wanted to join them to meet and greet Roxette. I, of course, said yes right away.

However, I learned to stay calm and prepared myself for not being disappointed if it doesn’t happen.

Hours later, at the backstage, the dream that I had for a long time started to come true right before my eyes when I saw Per and Marie entered the room.

It was so strange to see faces that I had ever only seen on TV or magazines actually appeared, for real. This time I kept taking lots and lots of pictures.

Then it was my turn to have my picture taken with Per. I had never met him before so I didn’t know what to do. I actually decided to avoid physical contact, so I just stood near him without even shake his hand. Then, he suddenly put his arm around my shoulder. I thought, hey, maybe it was okay to lay my head on his shoulder, then I got my picture taken (of course later I saw in our picture that Per didn’t smiling, I hope it wasn’t because of what I did).

Overall, Per was very warm and nice. He liked to talk to the fans all at once, which was great. Then, it was my turn to meet Marie. I was SO shocked when she grab my hand then kept holding it maybe for few minutes.

She was smiling and looking me right in the eyes, like she wanted to give all her attention to me. I never expected that. So, then I told her I’ve been a fan for 19 years since I was living in Indonesia and this is the first time I saw her in person. She was quite shocked, but she kept looking right into my eyes, then said, “hope this is okay with you.”

She still had her eyes on me while holding my hand so tight, seemed like she waited for me to say something. My 15 years old heart wanted to scream hysterically in front of her face, but my 30 year old brain told me to stay calm. At the end, the only words that I manage to say was “You’re so pretty.”

I knew it doesn’t sound smart at all and I wish I said something more meaningful. And guess what, she still looked at me right in the eyes. Maybe, I am crazy but it seemed like she could read inside my soul. That was too hard for me to handle so I turned away To this day, I kept thinking about that look. It’s still a mystery to me, but let me try to explain: In her eyes, there were kindness, child alike, innocent, mysterious, sweet, and curiosity or was it? Is that possible that some things that I felt like I saw on her was the reflection on my own feelings towards her? Like I actually witness my childhood past? There is something special with that woman. It turns out I wasn’t the only one who feel that, so I wasn’t crazy then.

At that time the whole meeting was still like a dream to me. I started to realize that it really did happen when I went back to my sit at the concert. Then that was when I started to become emotional and I felt like I really need to cry this time, in happiness, but Katona Twins were on a stage right now, and even though I enjoyed them alot, again I didn’t want people to think that I cried for them.

The third concert in Dortmund however was mixed emotions to me. I was sad because this was the last one but happy at the same time to see them on a stage. After the concert, I went back to my hotel very tired and only got few hours to sleep before leaving for USA. I kept thinking about my meeting with Roxette and couldn’t wait to share my experience with everyone.

Of course, nothing ever went easy for me. I actually overslept and missed my plane, and I wasn’t leave until two days later, but that’s another story.

For more of the pictures I took with Roxette, click here

OFF TOPIC -TO MY BLOGGER FRIENDS

I apologize for not visiting (commenting) your blog/site lately. Right now I sort of having “blogging block”, and most of the time, I just don’t feel like writing. I hope very soon, I can be active again. Thank you for understanding.

I never know that this day would come, but it did. On May 6 (a day before my birthday), Roxette together on stage again.

Per Gessle, the man of Roxette (yes, Roxette has two member to all of you who thinks that Roxette is of that blond singer who sings It Must Have Been Love, Listen To Your Heart and many more) are touring Europe to promote his latest album, Party Crasher.

There has been rumor that Marie Fredriksson, the other half of the band, would join him on stage. Not so long ago, Per finally confirmed through his twitter. At that time no one knew where that she’s gonna pop out.

Many of you probably doesn’t know why Marie stop performing with Roxette. It started on 2002, before their appearance on the show Night of the Proms. She fell on her bathroom and then the doctor told her that she has tumor on her brain. A shocking news for her and of course her fans all over the world.

Starting that year, she then focused only to recover from her sickness. The intense treatment has cause her memory loss even eyesight losing to one of her eye (I just found out recently). So, at that moment, all the dream to see Roxette return seemed impossible.

She seemed getting healthier over the years, but seemed has to find new passion, drawing. She had several art exhibition in Sweden. For music, she still does making great one, but usually only in Swedish and recording at her own home. We, the fans, understand her decision and continue wishing her the best.

They do made surprise comeback on 2006, when they decided to get back together and record two new songs, One Wish and Reveal, to include in their Hits album as part of celebration of their 20 years anniversary.

They did performing on stage together at Bravo show, but not live in front of audience. And, that’s about it, Marie goes back to her art while Per kept continue with his solo career.

Then… on May 6th, Marie surprise the fans by performing live at Per Gessle’s concert in front of audience in Amsterdam. She sings It Must Have Been Love and The Look.

According to people who were at the show, many are cries. To see Roxette together and live on stage again after 7 years are just amazing. Although, I am sure the tears mostly for Marie who really stole the show tonight. If you see the video on YouTube, you almost couldn’t hear her singing. The fans kept screaming and singing along with her. I wasn’t there but looking at those video I felt like I was there. The emotional were so real. It’s almost like religious experience. No words can describe it.

Of course this is not the end. Starting October later this year, Roxette is gonna tour together. They back with Night of the Proms, the show that they have to canceled 7 years ago due to Marie’s illness. They only gonna perform few songs, but still the idea that Roxette on stage again still unbelievable.

There is also unconfirmed news that Roxette is gonna record new songs this Autumn. If that true, than 2009 is gonna be the great year for Roxette fans, and it seemed the fever is gonna continue at least in a while.

Roxette Comeback On YouTube

Marie Joins Per and sing It Must Have Been Love. See how crazy the response from the fans when seeing her on stage.

Marie stays with Per and sing The Look together.

And here they are again after the amazing show.

Roxette Mood

Before all this news about my favorite duo, I actually was having Roxette mood lately, so I made these:

and..

Someone plugged you in
And sadly they clipped your wings
you can’t fly away electric bird
Yeah someone took your tweet
When They *One day* fed you that bad seed
You can’t fly away electric bird

You’re art, you fell into this part
You play the victim perfectly holding your beating
heart, you used to be so smart
You fluttered round the yard making your magic

This has been my soundtrack lately for a very personal reason. I came up to this song thanks to the soundtrack of Six Feet Under. By the end of the season finale they played this beautiful song and I know I HAVE to find it.

I then learned that it was sung by this woman, Sia. Her voice is just so beautiful and unique I decided to look for more of her song and I found this one and it has been on Playlist ever since.

On to another thing, my social security number card has just arrived today. It was sooner that I expected but of course I prefer it sooner than later. So, then I started to make my resume although I haven’t finished yet but I plan to at least this weekend and if everything goes according to plan, I shall start hunting some jobs this Monday. My plan is to sign up to some staffing emergency. Nervous? That’s for sure because this is the first time ever in my life I actually apply for job.

As you notice, I changed lay out. The reason is the site keep having some trouble. I thought it’s because it had the older version of WordPress but when we upgrade it the problems won’t go away, so I thought it’s probably because of the lay out, so then I changed into this one. Seemed the problem still stays although it isn’t as bad as usual. We (my husband and I) still are trying to figure out what to do and try our best to solve it.

Well, it’s 2.15 am now and I felt like my mind isn’t working properly now. So, I think I am gonna go to bed now. Good night! (*)

My friend Dicky gave me that picture last night while we were chatting on Yahoo Messenger. He said he saw the bus several times when he was driving to college before finally be able to take the picture. This experience is pretty special especially because you don’t see a bus with a Roxette banner on it everyday.

He said he was tempted to interview whoever the driver and asked what’s the story behind it. Well, he didn’t do that but he share the picture with me anyway which is great.

Another thing that also happen to me last night that I’ve decided to watch the rest of Six Feet Under series after delaying for almost three years! I am so glad that I did though because this is like the best show ever on television.

So, this morning, I guess around 8 am or something I finally see the last episode of it’s final season. The ending was amazing. I didn’t recall any ending for any kind of TV show that was this great. I won’t tell more about it because I just didn’t want to spoil this to anyone who hasn’t watched it yet, but if you really love a very GREAT stories with amazing character ever invented on TV, you SHOULD watch it or your life will be suck! (Well, I am kidding, but that’s how much I want everyone to see it)

Anyway, by the very end of the show, they played the song that really captured my mind. So I decide to investigate about it. Lately the way I found great music only from TV, movies even a jingle from some silly commercial. We don’t have MTV and what’s the point if having MTV nowadays since they don’t really play music anymore but some overrated reality shows.

The song was called “Breathe Me” by Sia. When I learned about the lyrics I just didn’t understand why they decide to use this song, but when watched the scene they show by the very end along with this song, it just sound so make sense. I didn’t even know how to explain. So here it is:

SeeqPod – Playable Search

The Lyrics :

Breathe Me by Sia

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Don’t compare her with Mariah Carey or Whitney Houston, but she definitely CAN sing. No to mention that she has gut do this live on tv. The song she picked is called Before He Cheats by American Idol winner Carrie Underwood. So of course it won’t be fair to compare Teri’s version to her. Also, that song is pretty hard to sing.

I saw her as Teri, the woman who played Susan Meyer from the show Desperate Housewives, and from that angle I can see that she is actually quite good! I am still surprise by that. Also, if you notice one of the guitarist is James Denton, another cast member of Desperate Housewives. Actually, all the member of the band are from tv, but I don’t really know them.

Introducing my song of the day (or the week or whatever) from Wilco called How To Fight The Loneliness. I knew this song from one of my favorite movies of all time; Girl, Interrupted.

How to fight loneliness
Smile all the time
Shine your teeth to meaningless
And sharpen them with lies

Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time

PS : Just done writing about No Country for Old Men. However there are more movies that I’ve seen so I’ll publish them all together.

It’s rare for me to really liking Indonesian music. Not that I have problem with it but there isn’t really any songs that sounds good in my ear… yet! Until “Mahluk Tuhan Paling Seksi” arrives in YouTube. I was so damn surprise that I really love it. I think this is the catchiest Indonesian song I have ever heard. I didn’t plan to like it, especially the one from Mulan Jameelah and Ahmad Dhani, because I simply don’t like how they present themselves in public, especially Dhani. They’re just so damn annoying! I am glad I don’t live in Indonesia so I don’t have to see them all over the news.

However, I am glad to know that at least I am still appreciate their talent no matter what they do in their personal lives. All Indonesian readers at my blog surely familiar with all the fuzzes with Maia-Mulan-Dhani. To all who don’t know about them, here’s some facts/rumors about them.

Dhani:

- Probably one of the most talented musician in Indonesia. He also behind the success of Indonesian legendary band Dewa

-Arrogant and cocky. It’s clearly obvious on how he talked on interview.

-Underestimate woman. Said that in order to accept his wife back, she has to permit him to become polygamist.

-Working with woman who rumored behind the reason why his marriage to his wife almost ended.

Maia

-The Wife of Dhani.

-Form a female duo band with Mulan. The band is probably the most famous female band in Indonesia. They broke up, and rumors said that one of the reason that found out her husband is having an affair with Mulan.

-Just form the new duo band and releasing new album. Here’s their live video:

Mulan

- Being famous after Maia found her singing on cafe (or nightclubs?) and asked her to join her in her band, Ratu.

-Working and go to many events together with Maia soon to be former husband, Dhani.

This is the video when she and Maia still “best friends”

I plan to keep repeating this song on YouTube, at least until I am done with my post. So, this song sang by Rialto, one of the greatest band on the planet but sadly didn’t last that long.

I heard this first time probably on 1998, when I was still 19 and it’s hard to believe that 9 years has passed. I swear I still remember clearly what happened back then, probably because I was already adult back then, and now it’s been 10 years since I’ve been officially have this title. So, as an adult, my brain has working properly that’s why I still remember most of the things like it was yesterday. I still remember how I thought about the world and I definitely have known which is good path and which is not.

Everything went too fast, I swear when you’re 20’s it was faster to reach the number 30 than when you’re 10 to 20. I wonder if time will fly faster when you finally 30 years old. Will everything be okay on that stage? I don’t know…

It was sad to see all the new band I used to like aren’t new anymore. The radio is playing different music now, so does the TV and for the first time in my life I felt like stranger. I don’t see things that I used to know anymore. Being almost 30 should make you feel even more comfortable with the world, because you had 30 years to learn and to get to know with everything. But why all the things that I thought I knew either disappear or replacing with something new and I felt that I am just too old to adjust. Like I don’t belong here anymore. Is that how all the adults feels? Is that how 50 years old people thought about the world? How things has passed so fast and now the world has became totally strange part to live.

I remember often thought that adults are weird. The older they get the weirder they’ve became. Now I know why. It must be hard to live without things that you used to feel comfort about and the things that you used to believe. It must be hard to live in new world. It must be hard to see everything you put your heart on were taking over. It must be hard to see how younger generation looking at you or sometimes even pretend that you don’t exist. No wonder adults and young generation couldn’t understand each other, they both came from different world! We might live in the same planet, but as you grow older it’s like some unknown power took you to other parallel universe. You didn’t realize it because at first things are looking the exactly the same. Soon, you learn when people start acting in the way that you don’t understand, the way that only they CAN understand, because this is THEIR world, not you and now not me anymore.

I miss my universe but I know I couldn’t go back. All I can do is try to survive with this new life on this different parallel. I learn new rule that once you got in, you can’t go back. In the meanwhile, I’ll just gonna keep playing the song that I once knew in my old world.

“This summer’s over, seaside town,
This seaside town, summer’s over.”

I’ve been “playing” more with Paint dot net these last few days, and this photo is my latest experiment. Actually I got the idea from the video of Natalie Imbruglia’s Wishing I Was There (US Version). There was a scene where she play her fingers in not exactly like what I did in the picture but kinda similar. Why it’s in black and white then? Because I simply love that.

More of my experiments just click here

On to different stuff, we went to play badminton again today. Only for a short time though because it’s getting dark. Then we went to Blockbuster to return the movie we rent and exchanged those with Inland Empire and The Eye.

After that, we had dinner at Vietnamese Restaurants. This is the first time ever I ate there. The food were so delicious and very cheap as well! So, now I have tasted Vietnamese, Chinese, Japanese, Thai, Indian, Mexican, Italian (well, if you count pizza and pasta). So far Thai and Vietnamese food are my favorite. (*)